I was struggling with what to write this week. I had thought of beginning to include some short fiction pieces in this blog so I could continue my practicing in public, but nothing was coming to me. Then, I started looking through one of my writing prompt books, and I found a question. This question, along with events that have happened in the last few days, gave me my answer. Here’s the prompt. “What is something you have learned in the past few days?”
The answer, of course, is today’s title, but there is so much more than just those three words. I’m not going to go into detail about the events themselves to preserve my friends’ privacy. I just want to write about how they affected me personally. As you can imagine, both events had a “life is short” theme, and I thought about what I had been working through for the past few months. Thought about how I had felt awkward showing my true self because I wanted to fit in and feel less lonely. Thought about how I had felt my true self wasn’t worthy to be shown even though I am a daughter of God. Thought about how I had felt like I was standing on a precipice.
But, God showed me where my thinking had been wrong, and I said, “Enough!” He reminded me of Psalm 139:13-15. “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.” He made me the way I am, and He wants me to acknowledge it as I live my life in His service. Just because another Christian brother or sister is doing something doesn’t mean God wants me to do it and just because others feel the need to put up shields doesn’t mean I have to. My true self is worth showing! I’m going to show it, and if someone doesn’t like it, that’s too bad. God has too much work for me to do to reach those on the edges for me to do otherwise. Life is too short for me to try to fit into a mold even if that mold is the church. God doesn’t call for us to fit into a mold either. He calls for us to have a heart like His, and I know He wants me to show my true self as I share His love.
So, as I think about my friends and the events they are having to deal with, I will think about what God has taught me and put it into practice in my life. Very thankful for my Lord and Savior who is the truest friend I have!
Hope everyone has a great day!